I received a letter from Harry the day after sentencing. He actually wrote it the day after he was convicted but I didn't receive it until several days later and therefore he had written it before he knew whether I was even going to be at the sentencing or before we had discussed what had just happened to him.
When I saw the prison stamp on the envelope, it hit my heart hard and I was crying before I had even picked the envelope off the doormat. I was shaking as I tried to open the cheap small brown envelope, the address in my husbands handwriting filled the width. As I read the letter, I couldn't actually see the words properly as I sobbed uncontrollably.
In the succeeding months I have spoken to many wives whose husbands have been falsely accused and they all tell me that they received a letter from their husbands basically telling them to forget about them and to move on. I am therefore going to be brave and am going to share with the world, the painful letter I received. I am sharing it because I know it was written by a selfless man who only wrote it because he loves me immensely and I am sharing it because you might be the next wife/partner/family member who receives a letter like this and I want you to know that the reaction of an innocent man to push you away is normal.
I needed to write this letter just to say how sorry I am to put you through this, thank you for your love and support in court. Also for dealing with everything and everybody outside. I just wanted to say I found my special true love when I met you and our years together have been the best of my life. I will not forget everything you have done for me, I have never met anybody like you, always looking after me so well and now to loose you after this is so hard. You were my life xxx
I have loved you from the day we first met and our love got stronger and stronger. I have never loved anybody as much as you, I miss you so much. I don't know what will happen at sentencing. I could not believe the verdict, my heart hit the floor, all I could think of was you and what I had lost and wll never have again.
I will never forget the love you had for me, that will stay with me until my end. Thank you for the best years of my life and for always being there when I needed you. All our memories will stay in my heart and I will never stop loving you.
I am sorry I won't be there to help you sort things out but I know you will cope as you always do.
You will need to forget me and deal with what you need to do.You are very special to lots of people and you need to find somebody as perfect as you to look after you. Please get on with your life without me, you are a very special person and I will miss you so much. You were my wife, friend and lover and I will never forget you.
Sorry for leaving everything for you to deal with.
This is so hard to write with tears in my eyes. But please find a better life. I will always love you and will never ever forget that you believed me and supported me. Please don't write if you don't want to, I will understand.
Give my love to everyone. Love you always and forever
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